I love rain and lightning and thunder!

A perfect day for a pensive post.

I've been having a hard time some days lately feeling a purpose.  I know I'm preparing to eventually become a mother one day and I try to keep up with the little things to be doing that.  But what else in the mean time?  We are NO WAY ready to have kids yet, although I feel like when we do start having kids I will feel more like I have real meaning in my life, like I'm actually doing something worthwhile.  But then that makes me worried that when they eventually grow up I'm going to be left again without anything to do!  I'm sure that's not true though.  I'll probably have developed good hobbies and strings by then.  But still.

But I just don't know what to do with myself.  It seems as if my days pretty much consist of going to work and cleaning up the apartment.  I have books that I've been wanting to read so I'm trying to read more, and that helps me keep my sanity.  Reading helps me appreciate thinking outside myself and have meaningful thoughts.

I guess I don't have much to look forward to...  I've completed some of the "big milestones" of life: graduate from college, GET MARRIED...  After planning extensively for a wedding I guess my life seems pretty dull!  Maybe it's just the sudden contrast.  Maybe I'm having planning withdrawls!  It wouldn't surprise me; I like to plan.  I was one of the Activities Committee co-chairs in the singles ward before I got married.  My calling is in the Primary now where I get hardly any adult interaction and I don't have a clue what's going on in Relief Society and it doesn't seem like my ward does anything anyway.

I'm not complaining...  I have a good life and things are going well for me and for us.  Adam started yesterday at the UofA and he's working toward an Architecture degree.  He is going to do so well!  I'm just getting bored with my own track I suppose.  I don't know what to do with myself!

I'm trying to do new things and keep up on little things I should be doing, and trying to be cheerful and willing in everything that I need to do.  Let's face it, we need to ENJOY our lives!  I'm trying to do just that.

I'm going to go read a book.  :)

 "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."

-Martin Luther King, Jr.-

UPDATE NOTE (10:02 PM):

I feel good about life!  I love listening to the words of the prophets.  I need not worry, I just need to do.  I finally contacted my ward mission leader to go out with the sister missionaries in my ward.  I'm nervous!  I've wanted to go out with them for a while now, and there must be good reason, so I need to, and so I am.  I'm excited.  :)  Our purpose in life is to make it back to our Heavenly Father, who loves us so.  Our second purpose is to help those around us to make it back too.  We can't do it all, but we need to do what we can.  Meet a need one at a time, as Elder Christofferson taught us on Sunday.  Jesus Christ lives!  And we CAN be happy NOW.  :)

"I pray, I get an answer, and I do it."

-Stephanie Nielson-

Kitchen Shenanigans

So since becoming a wife, if one hasn't already done so one begins to learn to be a cook.  Gotta love the bumps along the way!

I just gotta say that I'm happy we now have a fully-functional toaster.  We got one as a wedding present -- didn't pop up.  Adam made black, smokey toast the first time we used it.  Yum!  The second toaster came with the pop thing broken off AND it didn't stay down.  The third and final toaster (for now), which by the way is a different brand and from a different store, works wonderfully.  The timer works, it pops up with nice golden brown toast, I love it.  I also love that I don't have to use the oven to try to toast things, which brings me to my next point...

I don't remember what I was making, but it was something that I wanted to toast some bread.  I thought I would try using the oven, not broil, since maybe that would make it toast better and more even instead of just on one side like broil would do.  So I put the bread in the oven.  When I check the bread, I flip them over to see how the other side is cooking.  I didn't think to pull out the rack, however I did use an oven mit.  First piece, successful.  Flipped.  Second piece, not so successful.  I proceeded to drop the bread through both the oven racks and directly onto the burner.  Can you guess what happened?  The bread caught on FIRE!  Whoops.  My first thought was to throw water on it (you know, they always teach you growing up to throw water on a fire to get it out!), but I remembered a previous experience that reminded me not to, and I'll get to that in a sec.  I just blew it out and pushed it with a spatula into the oven and off the burner.  Oops!  I'm glad I have a toaster.

About a week previous to this bread catching on fire in the oven, we had another kitchen fire.  A real, could-have-burned-the-place-down fire.  I think I was making spaghetti, heating up some noodles on the stove in a big pot.  A few minutes later my pot is on fire!  Okay, pots don't burn fire.  But there must have been some goodies under the burner because they were burning good!  This is my favorite part:  I peeked around the corner to Adam who was sitting at his computer and said with a big smile, "Umm, the stove is on fire."  Haha.  He came to my rescue and blew it out.  There is still some evidence on the microwave, which sits directly above the stove.  We still haven't used that burner.  Maybe it's time to clean it, or get new ones.  Maybe.

My last fiasco for now is my attempt to make ranch from one of those packets.  I made it the other day and hadn't looked at it until today.  It looked a little goopy, which I thought would probably be fine.  But when I tasted it.......  It's basically Miracle Whip with some extra flavor.  Haha!  I tried to imagine eating it with something I would put ranch on, but I'm just not so sure about it.  It doesn't even run at all; it gooped into the container I put it in.  I followed the directions on the package....  I don't know what happened.  Maybe I should use a different kind of mayo?  Hopefully next time will be more successful!

That's all for the shenanigans.  I'm sure there will be much more to come.  :)

I guess this is what I get for thinking nothing is happening in my life...

Adam broke his foot!

Yes.  It's broken.  It's really dumb how it happened.  Okay well, maybe not THAT dumb!  He was playing water basketball on Saturday with some friends, no big deal they do it all the time.  He was standing on a step in the pool and jumped into the shallow end -- a distance of about 3 feet probably -- and just landed on it bad.  Oops!  And it is very. broken.

Since I've been taking care of my sweet husband I keep kind of forgetting that he is my husband, a capable and competent adult, not my child who needs constant supervision and care and reminding of how and when to do things.  I find it a little strange that I'm feeling this way!  I think my mother instincts are kicking in.  I take it as a good sign.  I'm so excited to have kids to take care of and love and cherish someday!!

So not only do we have this crazy broken foot to throw a wedge in our days, but Adam has been without insurance since he got dropped off his parents' when we got married 2 months ago.  Saturday night we knew we needed to get his foot x-rayed to see what the problem was so we went in to urgent care Sunday morning anyway.  But we only had a $30 co-pay??!  Turns out Adam is STILL on his parent's insurance.  Phew!  But then, was he truly allowed to be?  We are looking at thousands of dollars to be paid here in the next week or so with the surgery and facility fees and getting his foot all fixed up...  We searched out many options and talked about a lot of things with his parents and my parents...   Adam's dad called him early this morning after doing extensive research and told him that Adam is still good on their insurance through August 31st, as the renewal date is September 1.  !!!  What a blessing!!!  Definitely did not expect that one!  I feel so undeserving though, I've been procrastinating getting our tithing checks written out and handed off...  We just have so much to catch up on.  But it's no excuse!!  But don't worry, I'm taking care of it THIS WEEK.

Was that too much info?  Well, the point is that the Lord is very VERY aware of us and our needs.  We would have been able to handle everything either way, though one way would have been a good chunk of our money bye-bye.  But we are trying to live our lives right and do what we are supposed to do.  If we try our best to do our part, He WILL take care of us.  He will.  He always does.

"Give to the world the best you have and the best will come back to you."

- Madeline Bridges -

"One can never tell what will be the result of faithful service rendered, nor do we know when it will come back to us or to those with whom we are associated. The reward may not come at the time, but in dividends later. I believe we will never lose anything in life by giving service, by making sacrifices, and doing the right thing."

- Heber J. Grant -